If Only I Had Loved Her More

Episode 1

It's New Year's Eve, and Bella Joslin is in a hospital bed while her husband, Hugo Pitt, is nowhere near her. A doctor delivers the blow: her cancer has relapsed, it's advanced, and surgery offers only a slim chance. Bella calls Hugo, who claims he's buried in work — but she hears fireworks on his end. He's at the seaside with his secretary, Gwen Lowe, celebrating the holiday. Bella knows exactly what's happening, and she knows she may not survive the night. The betrayal lands before the diagnosis even has time to sink in.

Episode 2

The past comes into focus. Hugo and Gwen met back in their university days, and after a car accident left Hugo needing a kidney transplant, Gwen stepped forward as a donor. In return, Hugo promised her his devotion. But when Bella was diagnosed with leukemia and had to leave the country for treatment, Hugo woke up to find her gone — and Gwen by his side, feeding him a story of abandonment. Two years later, Bella returned, recovered, and Hugo married her. Now he treats her with open contempt, reminding her that he owes his life to Gwen, not to her.

Episode 3

Bella is still short on her surgery fees and asks the hospital for more time. Meanwhile, Gwen struts through the office wearing a necklace worth hundreds of thousands — a gift from Hugo. When Bella confronts him about spending fortunes on his secretary while refusing to cover her medical bills, he brushes her off. At the company, Gwen makes it clear she considers herself the one Hugo truly cares for, not Bella. Bella fires back that as Hugo's wife, she still has the power to fire employees. The tension between the two women escalates fast.

Episode 4

A confrontation at the office turns physical, and Gwen plays the victim. Hugo sides with her instantly, demanding that Bella kneel and apologize to Gwen in front of everyone. Bella refuses, pointing out that Hugo never once asked what illness she has or why she needs money — he only trusts Gwen's version of events. She asks him for a hundred thousand for her medical treatment, but Hugo won't hand it over unless she humiliates herself first. Bella reminds him that Gwen's gifts are marital property, and she has every right to claim them.

Episode 5

Gwen claims she donated her kidney to Hugo five years ago, painting Bella as the woman who abandoned him. Bella challenges her publicly, asking Gwen to name the tests a donor match requires, which kidney was removed, how long recovery took. Gwen can't answer a single question. Hugo, however, refuses to hear it. Bella insists she was the one who nearly died for him, but he accuses her of lying and of faking her cancer. Gwen milks the moment, complaining of pain. Bella stands her ground, saying she's the one who's actually sick — and she's done being silenced.

Episode 6

Bella finally says the word: divorce. Hugo dismisses it as a tactic to get money, insisting he and Gwen are innocent. Bella fires back with the facts — the expensive necklace, the public embrace, the way he forced his own wife to kneel for his secretary. Hugo still won't believe her. Gwen urges him not to give in, and Hugo coldly predicts Bella will come crawling back. But Bella walks out, leaving him calling after her. For the first time, she's the one walking away, and Hugo is left standing alone.

Episode 7

Hugo calls Bella, furious that she hung up on him. He warns her to stop threatening divorce and stop going after Gwen, offering her one condition if she'll back down — an apology for abandoning him years ago. Bella doesn't take the bait. A flashback shows a younger Hugo selling software he'd spent years developing just to buy Bella an expensive necklace, a gift she told him was too precious to keep. The memory lingers as Bella faces another hospital bill she still can't pay.

Episode 8

Bella is told she must dress appropriately as Hugo's wife and request jewelry through Gwen. She quietly arranges her surgery fees and asks a friend to care for her dog. At the hospital, she learns the surgeon operating on her is Dr. Song, a cancer specialist returning from abroad — and someone from her past. Meanwhile, Hugo buys Gwen a cake, and when Bella goes missing, no one thinks to worry until her dog is found alone. A nurse calls Hugo: the surgery consent form needs a family signature. He doesn't come.

Episode 9

Hugo still believes Bella only has a cold, because Gwen told him so. Gwen, meanwhile, suffers a dog-hair allergy attack, and Hugo rushes her to the hospital in a panic while Bella, mid-cancer crisis, is left to manage alone. Dr. Song steps in and prepares her for surgery himself. He reveals he looked for her after returning from abroad, only to find she was married. Bella apologizes for how they've reunited, and Dr. Song promises he'll do everything he can for her. Hugo is nowhere near.

Episode 10

Hugo storms in to find Dr. Song treating Bella's wound and accuses them of having an affair, twisting every gesture into proof. Gwen piles on, claiming Bella faked her cancer and that the doctor has been lying for her. Bella slaps Gwen. Hugo threatens her, orders her home, and refuses to accept the divorce — unless she tells him who'd be the wife and who'd be the mistress. Bella tells him to take his lover and leave. The marriage is finally cracking open, and Hugo still can't see the truth standing in front of him.

If you've been waiting for the moment Bella stops apologizing for surviving, this is the episode where it finally begins — keep watching.